2 posts tagged “24”
so here lately, i've been bitchin' about this whole quarter life crisis thing. so any who...i got to work early this morning and had a little time to kill. so i'm on myspace (yes such a work no, no) and i decide to read my horescope. this is what it says:
Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)
"It's frustrating when your long-term goals seem so far off that you believe you won't reach them. Don't throw in the towel just yet, for your perspective is a bit warped by Saturn the Tester who might be making things look less than optimum. Instead of giving up, recommit to what's most important. Then after a few days of hard work, reassess your situation before making a final decision."
that ish is creepy. i've been having a hard time dealing with the whole school issue. i work full time and i just can't seem to dedicate the necessary energies to school. i was almost in tears last night because i couldn't decide if i wanted to continue on with my studies or take some time off. the trick to that is, is if i take some time off, i'm liable to quit. quitting isn't a word i'm too fond of, but i don't know what else to do. i have to work to pay bills of course, but i'm only 18 classes away. working full time though basically pushes this thing out for at least another year and a half. i'll be 24 in nine days...see why i'm having a fit. it's like i need to finish this degree so i can move a bit further with my life. due to my given situation, finishing my B.S. just seems...i dunno...like BS. i guess i only lose the fight when i give up though huh?
it's november 4, 2007...in a little over a month, i will be 24...24!!!
usually, i'm not one to dwell on age. i believe you are only as old as you let yourself become. i've always tried to hold on to pieces of my youth in any shape, form, or fashion. it is very easy most of the time to see the kid in me.
so i'm enjoying some tea with a friend last night, and we start the discussion about age. the discussion actually started when she mentioned that a gentleman of say 21 was interested in her. So we start joking and then i realize...*oh ish, i'm about to be 24* that scares me...
most would say don't worry about it. you're still young, you have so much ahead of you. i agree. one can't help but stop and ask *wtf have i accomplished in 24 years?* i think these feelings are coming from the whole quarter-life crisis thing. I often beat myself up about not doing enough...not experiencing enough. In tewnty-four years, I've never been out of the U.S.A., I still haven't fnished my BS in engineering, I've yet to own (as in purchased in my own name) a house or a car, i've only visited about six other states not including the one i currently reside in, and etc. long rant short, it's a tad bit scary to think about how my future may turn out...
i dunno...more on this later...
